I wrote the first 4 lines of this Nazm last Saturday afternoon while doing some studying. It seemed more like my pen started writing all by itself. Next morning while sipping tea and watching the squirrels eat bread on my balcony, I picked up (or my pen did) from where I had left and ended up with Khudkushi. After writing Wo Khat, I am glad I was able to write something non-autobiographical.
Below are the meanings of somewhat uncommon words for those of you not that familiar with Urdu.
Also recorded a rough recitation accompanied by some random plucking for those who can’t read Hindi.
Saurabh Bharat has used an alternate recitation of this Nazm in his short film “I wanna die“.
This Nazm is somewhat drawn out of frequent suicides by Farmers (in Maharashtra and elsewhere) in India who end their lives out of sheer desperation and helplessness. I had written a Ghazal on a similar note back in 2006 called Uske Maathe Ki Lakeeron Me.
“Khudkushi kya hoti hai yeh ruh bakhubi jaanta hai
khudkushi jab man karta hai to ruh bhi kaamp uthtee hai .
Tadap tadap ke tadaptee hai aur ro kar bhi nahin ro saktee hai “.
Scriptures mention that souls released after suicides live in total silence and terrifying darkness of the underworlds. They remain there till they take another birth as was scheduled by God, earlier.
I made up the three lines right now. No contest there, of course.
Arre khudkushi…..naam se hi darr lagta hai…Gautam bhai !!!
khud-kushi gar jo badle khud-khushi mein
To nahin darr phir koi bhi iss kainaat mein
yeh moomkin hai jo sirf jiye doosro ke liye
jeetey jee paye woh yeh janat apney liye
yeh bhi instant hai…apki lines padh karr.
hum koi shayar nahin bas jo alfaaz dil mein aaye likh daley…
I seek permission to express my deep appreciation of the “instant” shayari of Anitaji.
Keep it up ye builders of this generation.
Thanks to you for sharing your lines Anita Ji. Dhar sahab, good improv work!
First of all…very well written by everyone…
and I am relieved to find a different nazm…waise title was worrisome at first…
Deep and at the same has a lighter note (mujhe kuch esa laga)
Thanks for reading Janki, all is well 🙂
Thanks to all team/group at dayaar e zafar.
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God bless all with khushi and sirf beshumaar khushi…Amen !
arre gautam Bhai kahan aur kaise ho
kuch naya tazaa aur instant sunaao